Hi! How are you?

No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again - Budha 

I am not gonna asking have you ever feeling lost, Coz i do believe you've been there. Or maybe that's how you feeling right now.

And if you are feeling lost right now, i got u. You r not alone. I am lost too, many times. 

I am not gonna give u some motivational sh1t, or others positive things. 

What i wanna do is encourage u to throw out your thought, express your feeling, your emotion that u been hold for this long time. Let's do some yapping a.k.a talking non-stop.

Let me do it first through this blog post.

I've been feeling so low for the past few months. My motivation going up and down. 

I procrastinate my personal goals so many times.

I stuck on the 'plannning' loop.

I am really good at planning. I proudly say that i could be so addicted doing that.

And that's also my curse, coz i stuck at the paper. On the planning phase. Most of them never get execute.

Actually i complete some missions, my personal habbit like walking and meditating. 

It went well.

But it's not going well for some area improvement, esepecially for my career or my business.

I even couldnt publish one blog post per month for this blog.

It's been a year since i wrote the last time.

I am not gonna give myself excuse this time.

I failed built habit that i planned before: writing to improve my copywriting skill, to articulate better, to express my feeling through meditative writing.

I failed.

And i hv a lot of different stories with the same nuances. The version of me that i hate.

But, u know what....

Am not giving up no matter what i going through.

Am not losing hope over myself.

I just feel that i still have the time. I can always begin again.

I mean, i am alive. God give me this life. He still gimme the body that feeling sooo tired to start over. The mind that full of scenario to not believe myself.

And here i am. I choose to believe myself even though am not sure yet. I am still questioning the reason why i writing this blog post.

I do believe that everyone still have that courage to believe their self.

It still there. U just need to face it not ignore it.

Start asking yourself about your anti vision, the life that you dont want to live in.
The live that makes you hate so much to wake up every morning.

And if you dont have the answer yet, no worries homie. 

It doesnt works like that. U couldnt find it when u r on surviving mode. When your mind full of agenda.

I took walks this afternoon to clear my mind.

I have no expectation when i started did that.

I just think that i need some fresh air. So, i went out.

The moment i walked and being present, the more i realize that this life is so beautiful.

I saw clear blue sky. I felt the wind passed by the giant trees, makes the leaves danced so peacefully in harmony.

I let myself stop many times to experienced the beauty of this life that i forgot for the long time.

I am so grateful seen those wonderful things this afternoon.

Seeing sky, silhouette, sunset, big trees, leaves and flying birds remind me to have a faith and free. 

And it gave me a little push to believe in myself and start over again now.

So, now is your turn.

Put your gadget down. Take a deep breath and throw out all the thought inside your mind.

Express your feeling. You could do it in many ways.

It could be writing. Voice recording. Take a video or anything that might works for you.

And go outside. Make a movement, coz movement could reduce the anxiety.

Below are some of my photo journal. I share it here as reminder for myself that i choosing myself.

So...tx u for doing good for yourself. Not give up, but keep going. Cheers and hope talk to u again very soon :)